The Note #33

The Tiniest Dress

The only decent photo I was able to get—thanks to my stepdaughter, who’s also very funny! This is an old velvet dress from Massimo Dutti. Shopping for dresses is the hardest of things for me so when I get one, I HOLD ON to it even if I never wear it!

Yesterday, I went to a black tie banquet in Scotland, and I was wearing the tiniest dress. 

Barely black tie, if I say so myself. On the edge of chic.

This wasn’t my plan.

My plan was to wear an elevated version of a tent, which is always what I prefer. There is a part of me that loves comfort, but I also think I feel outside of myself anytime I wear anything remotely sexy. Which has been a complaint from everyone FOR YEARS. From my partners, who, as far as I remember, have begged me to wear a skirt once in a blue moon, pretty please. 

But even from some of my friends who beg me not to cut my hair, to stop with the tomboy look and let go of the Demis Roussos togas. And who, probably, see a side of me that I don’t see, or that I am not comfortable with.

So yesterday, I went out in very high heels and a tiny dress and I understood some of the reasons why I usually prefer to hide.

1/ I am not always 100% confident in my body, so going for the old Le Smoking is easier. No drama, no weird bra situation, no flat butt despair, no shaving emergency, everything is under control.

2/ Being “sexier” (???)(ew, how do you say that?) means that people’s behavior changes around you. Both men and women act differently. With women specifically, it takes more time to break the ice. And I think my need to break the ice—and to be loved—has always been stronger than my need to “show what I got” (ew, how do you say that?)

3/ It’s a lot more work—we can cover that in a future Note if you’re interested—and I think I have been incredibly lazy. I am the same with my hair. I never let my hair down because of the extra work it needs to look good. 

I want to give a chance to this other side of my personality. And I am sure that the fact that I am turning 49 soon has something to do with it.

The thing is… Everything needs more work at my age anyway! So why not a little more!!!?

If that’s what it is, it’s great news. I love being pushed out of my comfort zone. 

Even through things as small as tiny dresses.

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The last Letter was an update on my life, how am I coping with the countryside and also, well… Why things will be changing AGAIN.

In the last Note, I talked about my newly found obsession.

In our latest live, we talked about big life changes (yes I am going through something), self-discovery and when our dreams turn into prisons.

Our live has moved! Meet me on Friday, March 29th, at the usual 6pm UK time. If you don’t know how to join our lives, learn more here and let me know if you have any questions. See you soon!!!

Doré is still THE BEST coolest effortless French skincare line (and not just because I created it!)

If you have any questions or would like to suggest a subject for one of my future Notes, let me know here!

Big kisses!